Shocked.

I am truly shocked. I don't know what to think or how to react so I'm just sort of stunned. My husband and I went to a hockey game recently. As is often the case, the mascot runs around the stands and they show him and the crowd around him on the jumbo tron above. As the game went on, during one of the "Radio Commercial Breaks" I looked up and saw this incredibly large woman who looked like she was stuffed into her seat. I started to feel bad for her when I realized it was me! I didn't even know what I looked like, it was seeing my husband that caught my attention that it was me. I am the incredibly large woman who was stuffed into her seat. I wanted to cry. I don't know how it is that I don't see myself the same way that other people see me. I had to ask my husband is that really, what I look like? I don't see myself as this incredibly large woman. I see myself as someone who has to lose weight, that is heavy, but I was shocked when I saw myself up on that jumbotron. How is it that we don't see ourselves the size we really are?