Monday, May 16, 2011


I'm feeling horrible right now. It's after 11pm and my stomach hurts, it's upset and there is no way I'm going to get any sleep for the next couple of hours, at least. I've been doing really good lately, no I haven't been blogging, mostly because there is nothing to report, go to work, eat dinner, go to gym or walk dog on long walk, go te bed, and repeat. I figured it would make for some really boring reading, so really who wants to read boring.

My husband left on a business trip last night, I came home from work, took the dog for a walk, and couldn't decide on what to have for dinner. I made a salad and grilled a chixken breast and sat there looking at it in disgust. This wasn't what I wanted for dinner. So instead of eating my healthy dinner, what do I do? Really what do I do? I head to McDonalds, with the thought of getting a large Ice Tea, because you know for a $1.00 what the ice tea, one dollar, a six pack of chicken nuggets, large fries and a 1/4 pounder with cheese I am. after 11pm, feeling disgusted and annoyed with myself with the inside of my body lieterally jumping around...waving it's fist in the air, yelling at the top of it's lungs..."WHAT THE HE** WERE YOU THINKING YOU CRAZY WOMAN!!!

I don't know what I was thinking...was it because there was no accountablility...knowing full well that if my husband were home we would have had salad and grilled chicken breast but because he's away I felt justified in going on a fast food binge? I don't get it...when will I get to the point when I can stop the insanity, the absolute ridiculousness of what I do to myself sometimes?