I'm struggling this week and I'm not quite sure why. I had a great run on Thursday night with my run clinic. I did 3:1's which I was feeling really proud of. I went for dinner with my husband and one of my friends and made a wise choice for dinner. I even packed half of it up into the to to go container when it was brought to our table.
I went to Weight Watchers on Saturday morning and I was down this week, which more than made up for the two slight increases last week and the week before. I went for my run on Sunday, and I did 2:1's times 10. I didn't struggle with the time I was running, I enjoyed my run. I had fun with my run.
But I'm struggling. I want junk food. I want chocolate. I want french fries....it's been a really hard day. I skipped going for a walk on my lunch break because I knew I would end up in the drug store buying something I don't need. I'm struggling to stay focused. I really am, but the temptation to go purchase something and eat it even though I know deep down I don't want it is really hard.
I spent the night knitting tonight, knitting a few rows and then tearing it out, knitting a few rows and tearing it out. All so that I would be busy with my hands and that meant I couldn't go raid the kitchen. I had some popcorn with my husband earlier in the evening when what I really wanted was a bag of chips.
I'm struggling. I keep expecting this journey I''m on to get easier, but that just hasn't been the case, 14 months into it and it's still a constant struggle.